It’s been hard. Being someone who struggles with depression and anxiety can be debilitating, but I try my best to be positive about most things.
It seems like as I get older, I’m more afraid. It’s like every little ache or pain scares me into thinking something may be wrong. I do have health issues and they are currently under control, but this aging thing sucks!
It’s hard when you start realizing you can’t do some of the things you’re used to doing. Now, I have to find new ways to get things done and I’m not gonna lie, that’s not a good feeling.
I realize things could be much worse and I am truly blessed for my health to be what it is. With retirement in 2019 and the changes taking place in my body, I feel out of control sometimes. I need to feel in control of my health again. It’s like when you age, it’s out of your hands and that’s scary for me.
If you’re a Christian reading this, please pray for me that I’ll have the strength to get my health under control and feel better. I can’t let depression and anxiety scare me away from aging with grace.
I have all of the tools I need. Now I just need the strength to use them.
I so appreciate everyone who stops by to read my blog. I don’t know why you do it but I love you for it! 😊
You know what I hate? Being woken up unexpectedly by a dog doing her morning shake next to your head!
Which means: I now have to get up, go downstairs and let her out…wait for her to pee and then let her back in.
Most people could then get back in bed and fall back asleep.
If that had not happened this morning, I would still be asleep until at least 10am. If you’ve read this blog for a minute then you know how much sleep is an effort for me. But today it was totally my fault cause when hubby asked if I wanted her in bed with me, I said yes.
Ok, I’m done ranting…time for coffee and Love is Blind Season 4!
I still love you, Moki. Mommy just gets anxious. 🤪🤪🤪
I have been procrastinating. I was supposed to start going to the gym this week. Monday, actually. I have yet to go. What’s the hold up, you ask? ANXIETY!
Anxiety about what?
Leaving the house? Nope, not this time.
Starting something that I’m afraid I won’t stick with? BINGO!
I feel like I’ve been trying for so long to get in shape. But what does that really mean anyway? For me, it means losing some weight; maybe 15 lbs. But I have come to realize that instead of counting inches, I need to concentrate on what exercise does behind the scenes.
Instead of procrastinating, I need to concentrate on heart health.I’m a 52-year-old type 2 diabetic! I’ve been trying over the years to get a hold of my love for food, but I’ve neglected the part about moving more!
I’m aware that I don’t need a gym to move more but I plan to take advantage of this free membership that I have. I’ve got to conquer my fear and get started. The first step is always the hardest! I gave this advice to my son the other day. I guess it was really meant for me!
Hey friends. I’m just sitting here having my morning coffee and thinking about how blessed we are. I’m not too sure what I should blog about today and the daily prompt was a little too heavy for me. Our new home is coming along and we love it! A friend of mine in the area was able to come over and visit for a few hours the other day. 🙂
I’ve been trying to get back into my routine of daily exercise. Nothing major right now, just walking. I’m signed up on the app NextDoor and I’m seeing a lot of posts about coyotes in the area. I haven’t run up on any yet and I don’t plan to! I’ve been taking Moki to the dog park just to be on the safe side. I’m only willing to walk on the streets when Cedric and I go together to take Moki out.
I was able to get a free membership at Planet Fitness because of my Silver Sneakers membership! No, I haven’t gone and worked out yet but I promise…. soon. lol I’m fighting with my anxiety every day to do things differently. I’m winning! One step at a time!
Are any of you members of Planet Fitness or Silver Sneakers?
I just love the view outside of my window now. It looks so peaceful and it makes me want to just slow down and take it all in. I’m so thankful for this new place. It will require us to make some changes, but they are well worth it. It even pushes me to get outside of my comfort zone a little (one step at a time!).
We have a lot within walking distance of here. Less than 1/2 mile away is a complete shopping center…actually 2; one on each side of the street. Yesterday, I put on my walking shoes and grabbed my walking stick and journeyed up there. It was a leisurely stroll that took 15 mins each way, but the sun was shining and I felt good.
People who don’t suffer from anxiety might not see this as a big accomplishment, but for those of us who know, you know it is! It felt good to step out (literally!).
Surely I need a break. Yes indeed! What do I need a break from? So many things! But I will tell you my top 2.
Feeling unattractive. It’s been 11 months now waiting to get my dental implants. It’s hard to look in the mirror and not recognize who you see. It’s a journey.
Worrying about money. My family has come so far and we are so blessed. God always provides; so why worry?
I recognize that my anxiety/depression have a lot to do with these 2 things so I try hard to keep them in perspective. I’m so thankful for my husband and his support and understanding. I couldn’t make it through this journey without God and him.
I’m working on myself daily. It’s slow going but progress is progress. One day at a time.