I am so sick of this Shelter in Place due to Covid-19. I’ve had enough. I feel like I’m suffocating! I’m not one to spend alot of time away from home, but just feeling like it’s not safe out there is taking a toll on me.
When you have issues with depression and anxiety anyway, this sort of situation can become too much! I’m doing my part and trying to keep myself busy. On top of that, I’ve been battling allergies these last couple of days. 🙁 I’m just ready for this to end, but I feel like God is trying to show me something during this downtime.
Am I the only one who isn’t sure how much of her anxiety is real and how much is manufactured?
So much has happened since my last post when I was going into residential treatment for PTSD! While I was there, I resigned from my job and I have been out of work since then.
But God has prevailed! I am permanently disabled by way of the VA, so I no longer have to worry about how my family is going to make it financially without my working. I am at home full time now and let me tell you, it really does take some getting used to!
In the midst of the Coronavirus pandemic, I am relearning what things I enjoy and what things bring me peace. I’m so grateful to God that Cedric is working from home. With the status of this pandemic, him being here with me brings me peace. I’m learning to adjust to my limitations (mentally) and learning how to not burden myself too much. It’s ok to rest. It’s ok.
I’m also trying to concentrate more on my body and what it needs; daily movement and healthy food! I’m trying to get my life back.