Depression Slump

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I’ve been putting off blogging for the last few days. I was in a hole. I’ve got to admit, my depression had gotten the best of me. I ended up isolated for about a week and it wreaked havoc on my mental state. I often forget how important it is to get out of the house. It’s like I get stuck inside for a few days and the longer I stay in, the harder it is for me to get out.

During this “down” week, I’ve had lots of crazy dreams. I notice that they get weirder when I’m depressed. I was able to feel better over the weekend though. It helps that I can confide in my husband how I am feeling. Sometimes it’s hard to put into words, but he’s learned me over the last 6 years. I so appreciate his support.

I think part of the depression was due to stress. I had been overthinking my dentist appointment and just praying that we would be able to move onto the next step. I’m so thankful that the appointment was a success and my next one will be to check out my wax try ins! I’m almost at the end of this dental implant journey and it’s been a long time coming.

I think the implants and a few other things were just all wearing on me. The load got a little heavy. One day at a time.

Dental Appointment Done: New Impressions!

My Before Face

I had my follow up dental appointment after having the bone shaving surgery. Leading up to the appointment I was a little stressed. This has been a really long journey and I’m so ready for it to be over!

Doc was feeling positive when she saw how well everything had healed up. She said that the whole shape of the inside of my mouth has changed so we took new impressions.

Let me just say, impressions are not my favorite! I have a really bad gag reflex and it sucks, but I got through it. Doc made me another appointment to see her in a week! That means we are moving forward to the next step!!

I am so thankful to God for setting all of this in motion. God knows your heart and what you need and desire. Don’t be afraid to ask Him for these things. God loves you!

Love is Blind Season 4 vs. Anxiety

Love is Blind Season 4

You know what I hate? Being woken up unexpectedly by a dog doing her morning shake next to your head!

Which means: I now have to get up, go downstairs and let her out…wait for her to pee and then let her back in.

Most people could then get back in bed and fall back asleep.


If that had not happened this morning, I would still be asleep until at least 10am. If you’ve read this blog for a minute then you know how much sleep is an effort for me. But today it was totally my fault cause when hubby asked if I wanted her in bed with me, I said yes.


Ok, I’m done ranting…time for coffee and Love is Blind Season 4!

I still love you, Moki. Mommy just gets anxious. 🤪🤪🤪


Dental: 2nd Surgery in the Morning

So, the time has come for my minor setback to be rectified with surgery. Tomorrow, I will go under to have extra bone shaved on both sides of my mouth. To be honest, I’m a little stressed. I know that everything will be fine, but I just hate that we have to take a few steps back from where we were. The pictures are casts of what my mouth looked like when I first came in. Yikes!!

So, after I heal from this surgery, I will have to submit more impressions. At that point, hopefully everything looks good and we can move forward! March will be a year without teeth and to be honest, I’m sick of it. I just want my smile back…it’s not even about eating for me. I just want to look in the mirror and see someone I recognize.

Hubby took off work, so we can be at the hospital tomorrow morning by 6 am, so I’m just going to try to take it easy today…I feel a bit agitated and anxious, but it is what it is…

What I Hate About Moving!

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I’m excited! We are moving soon! (In 2 months) We have already started packing and getting ready to move out of our apartment. We will be going from here to a townhouse for about 2 years until we are ready to purchase our first home. Moving is always such a lengthy process but we know that this will be our last move before purchasing our forever home.

I’m excited! Stressed, but excited. We are waiting for confirmation from the place we applied for that we have loved since the first day we came across it! This is part of the new beginnings I feel like we are stepping into. Over the years, I’ve learned to discern when God is trying to do a new thing in my life. I am open, willing, and prepared to do what needs to be done. I’m grateful that my husband and I are on the same page!

This will be my first move as a retired wife, so most of the packing will be on me. I’ve already started, but I may need to go back and get rid of some things. I hate dragging a bunch of old stuff to a new place. If I’m not using it and it’s been packed up for 6 months, what’s the point?! Like my sister said, I can get rid of it!

I’m expecting moving boxes today, so I can continue packing and preparing! I love the excitement but hate all the work!

Stressed For All the Wrong Reasons

Sometimes I really need an outlet. Don’t get me wrong, I am very blessed, and I thank God for everything He is doing for me, but do you ever just want to scream?!

My puppy has gotten on my last nerve today and even broke something of mine and I am livid. Some might say it’s not a big deal, but I’m a little stressed right now.

It’s not just Moki (my Chorkie). It’s life. It gets this way sometimes. I need some sun. I get like this when I haven’t been out in a few days. (Depression is real, you all).

I’m going to take my own advice and go out. I need to breathe. Thank God for this blog!