If there was a biography about you, what would the title be?
I Am Not Second Anymore
That would be the title.
Why? Because when I was young, I used to write lots of poetry about my life. I even used to keep them in a black binder in hopes of getting them published one day. I remember back in junior high and high school, I always felt like my best friends had their own best friends and it wasn’t me. I used to write poetry about being “second best”. I felt that way my whole life. I was never good enough to be first.
I joined the Army in 1991. I was 19 years old. I met my first husband there and he was also the first man I’d ever been with. He made me feel like I wasn’t pretty enough to go places with him. He would tell me things his friends would say about me. He made me feel embarrassed about myself. He ended up cheating on me and leaving me for another woman. I still wasn’t good enough to be first.
But God.
He has brought a wonderful man into my life who knows the true meaning of the word Love. He shows me every day that I AM FIRST. He takes care of me and my heart. He supports me in my many struggles. I love him so much and I thank God for him every day.
I Am Not Second Anymore
