Wonderful Day To Be Alive!


What a wonderful day to be alive. Do you ever just look around inside your home and just thank God for letting you still be alive? I think of all of the things that I have been through and how many times I could have been dead and buried!

I thank God for his safety and his grace in my life.

I’ve gone through so much, just like the rest of you. He’s brought me through inpatient rehabilitation, cancer surgery and so many other things! Do you realize that God woke you up today for a reason? Those things you went through made you the person you are today. You are stronger and wiser. No, everything may not be perfect, but look at everything you’ve been blessed with: your health, a home, people who love you…priceless! God gave you those things because He loves you!

Walk forward today with your head held high knowing that:

You Are Enough

Talking To a Friend Helps

I got the opportunity to talk to friend of mine the other day and it really helped me figure out some things. As a person who suffers with depression, it is very easy for me to forget how important it is to spend time with friends. Sometimes you don’t even realize that you need someone to talk to until you start talking and it all just runs out!

At 49 years old, I have to stop being afraid of making moves. I can’t continue to worry about what people are going to think about my decisions; even those closest to me. Having been in therapy for over 10 years, I have really come a long way and have made some important changes, but this is where I often get stuck.

You have to do what is best for you. What is it that will make you happy?

CBD Is Helping

Having a lot of feelings these days. I refuse to rant today, so I’ll just leave that there.

I’ve been taking the CBD oil now for about a month and I must say, I DO feel the difference. I can tell it’s helping my anxiety because I’m quicker to do things that I wouldn’t do before; things other people don’t think twice about.

I’m so thankful for everything God has done in my life. 5 years ago, my life looked VERY different! He has blessed me and my son and my husband so much. I will never stop praising Him!

My Mind Never Turns Off

It’s been an interesting few weeks. I’m so tired of laying down and not being able to rest. My mind never turns off. I think that’s why I watch so much television. It gives me something to concentrate on instead of listening to the crap going on in my head.

I realized that I really need some way to control that. I need rest. Around the 10th of this month, I had a consultation with a rep and decided to begin trying out CBD for my anxiety. I was told it takes about 2 weeks to get into your system, so here we go.

I’m not interested in living the rest of my life on prescription drugs. I’m going to talk to my doctor about seeing what changes I can make towards living the rest of my life free. I know it will take a lot of work on my part, but it will be worth it.

Do any of you use CBD for anxiety or PTSD? I would love to hear if it’s working for you or not!

I am working on ME

I’m struggling to find words today.

Nothing is wrong or anything, I just feel “quiet”. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking over these last few days and I am trying to make steps toward quieting my anxiety. Yes, I’m on meds but do I really want to be on them for the rest of my life? NO.

I’m working on eating better and getting out of my comfort zone. Those 2 things are really big for me. It’s slow going, but I AM moving forward. One day at a time.

I got out this weekend with a friend and that felt really good. You really don’t realize how isolated you are until you get to step out and enjoy something. I thank God for my life and the support He has put around me. God has been good to me when I didn’t even know how to be good to myself.

Lord, continue to help me walk towards a more confident life.

Covid-19 and my mental health


It’s been a long few days. I feel like my body is beginning to be affected by the stress of this quarantine. It needs to end. At first, as a mental health patient, I thought the quarantine wasn’t really affecting me at all, but it may just be doing it in a different way.

I’m not exactly sick, but my gut isn’t doing well (that’s all I’ll say on that!).I feel like I’ve gained at least 10 lbs and I am really in need of my beautician and nail salon!!! It’s time to get back to real life people!

On the brighter side, my husband and I have learned a few new things about each other. LOL We missed our anniversary on March 17 due to Covid-19, but we really don’t want to ALSO miss celebrating his May birthday!

I’m going to rest today, knowing that this too shall pass.